The Office: My Year So Far

Like every average person, I have set my goals earlier this year but none of it have actually gone the way I have planned it. I didn't graduate because I didn't feel prepared enough to take the last exam to finish my course; the vacation I've been planning didn't even materialize; the house renovation is going beyond the budget; I'm not getting any healthier; It's been four months since I've lost my other source of income and I'm in so much financial debt but the urgent expenses just keep on coming in. But then, for some reason, I don't feel uncomfortable about my current status, which is very uncommon in my case, and that's what worries me.

During the first quarter, I was forced to join a pageant and out of luck, I won the "casual attire", "most like" and title "Ms. Iconic". My phone suddenly wont work so I had to purchase a new one. Now, two to three months after these events, my laptop broke in the middle of an urgent deadline. Yes, I had to purchase a new one. I know, you're probably saying I should've just borrowed from a friend until its fixed but it's kind of embarrassing since it may take a little more than a month before I can get it back.

Initially, I was a bit pissed that all these happened but thinking about it thoroughly, it made me feel better about myself.

Normally, I would spend my money on wants because I never had to worry about anything. Yes, I'm one of those sheltered, well provided spoiled princesses. It maybe nothing to others but to me, doing something I never wanted and winning it, having our house renovated, buying my gadgets with my own money, is kind of a big leap for me. It made me feel more confident that, for the first time, I'm actually doing something for myself and my family.

That's it for now. I'll write to you soon.

​-Aisiah Ezekyel